Self Censorship

How many lives do I actually live? In SL I am a best friend, a dancer, an escort, an explorer, a purveyor of the arts, an aspiring model and builder, an apprentice photographer, and yet that is not enough. In RL I only tell some, my most trusted, of my exploits in SL. The rest of my friends, coworkers, family members, would have no idea that their "good-girl" would lead the type of life she leads in her second one, yet I am still finding that parts of me I reserve even in my alternate world.

How is it that social norms have found me in a world that was suppose to be my escape? Recently I have tried to enter the world of modeling in SL and received sound advice that there is no way I could be a dancer/escort on SL as well as model. The modeling community snubs that profession, even though it is by all practical purposes the best way to make Linden, meet people, and be a naughty flirt! And this is my SL! How have these norms found me here? So, I am torn. Do I pursue all my varied inworld interests at the sake of censoring myself? Should I be true to my RL/SL self and develop a take it or leave it personality? Or do I remain in SL a reflection of my RL self by keeping part of me in the dark...to be continued...

Lillyanna Ohl: im torn
Lillyanna Ohl: im wondering if I can password protect it? (my blog that is)
JL: Hmmm Im not sure you can I am looking....
JL: I think you can actually.
Lillyanna Ohl: i may do that
Lillyanna Ohl: so like modeling types wouldn't get it
JL Hmmm well as long as you dont put it in your profile and only tell customers about it if you want..I think you should be ok!
JL: Who is going to find it seriously...
Lillyanna Ohl: someone did
JL: I know but they are not a fashion queen on sl!